Man, the beatings are going to continue until morale improves.  I just got word that I didn’t win a funding proposal I submitted as a part of my job.  I realize these are tough things to win. I realize I’m human, but my ego gets in the way when I lose. I take this stuff personally. I have fear of losing my job. Unlike the small failures and successes I have day-to-day the proposal is a lumbering elephant of a process. So much time in, so much waiting, so my emotional attachment to the result, such a black mark when I fail.  I need to trust my HP. I only can do the best I can do and leave the rest to Him/Her.