Dim light penetrates my eyes
Where am I and how did I get here?
Who am I? Nothing is clear
I hurt. Movements are deliberate and slow.
Appendages cursed to relearn to move and go.
My head pounds. compressed and short of oxygen.
I try to turn and look, but muscle memory fails again
I lay for a moment, trying to remember
remember what? Was there anything before.
Am I the Universe’s big bang. Something from nothing.
My thoughts expand. My hotel room coming into view
the sheets are warm and my mouth is dry.
I need water. I need food. I need ibuprofen. I need caffeine.
What the hell happened last night? Neon light.
Bars and beers daiquiris and the smell of piss in the street.
Narrow little Bourbon street a causeway of debauchery
clubs and strip clubs and girls, girls, girls.
And guys, guys, guys, all with too much sauce
and too much testosterone. All I did was take a walk.
A walk after hell froze over and the Cubs can hibernate for another winter.
A walk after I had lots of wine at a reception.
A walk after I told my girlfriend I was fond of her.
I did nothing wrong, my conscience isn’t paying the price today
that part is nice, but oh there was wine and maybe some beer
and my friends who I see a couple times a year
and not enough water and not enough sleep.
so to a morning meeting I must attend.
Hair a mess and scruff on my face.
Reborn again for another day of this Big Easy place.
and maybe tonight I’ll repeat my mistakes.
I may even make a few more,
right now though I just need some food and a shower
and to be a human again within a half hour.