My last post here was a while ago. Lately I haven’t had the energy to write. The time hasn’t all been bad. I hit a streak of mega-productiveness. The blogging stalled when I was caught in the midst of proposal writing (part of my job) and has sputtered since.
There are a couple of things that have been on the uptick though. Productivity at work has continued. Although the more I take on, the more seems to get thrown at me. I have been enjoying it for the most part though.
I am still seeing the same girl. It’s going ok, but I can’t help but feel that her being very wrapped up in herself will eventually lead me elsewhere. It might be me, but I’ve been feeling judged and unattractive in her eyes lately. The irony of that feeling though is I don’t have her eyes, nor can I see inside her head. I can just feel unimportant and unattractive to her, but again that could be all in my head. Relationships ebb and flow, this may be just an ebb. We’re going to Ireland together in under a week, we’ll see how it goes then.
There’s a part of me that is craving solitude. Time in my own space and in my own head without having to tend to the girlfriend, to my kids, to work. I think that’s called a staycation and I might need one. I’m feeling buried by my house. So many projects have been unattended for long enough. It’s hard to “see the forest for the trees though”. It just takes remembering that “Rome wasn’t built in a day” and just keep moving steadily forward and the things that need to get done will get done.
I think I’ve mentioned previously that I’ve been dabbling with selling stuff on EBay. It’s been a fun hobby for making a little extra “folding money”. My dad recently put me on to some hardware products that he thought would sell decently. I was pleasantly surprised to find a sweet-spot on the supply/demand curve for them and have since ramped up the sale of said hardware. It’s a fun little side business and has me thinking of ways I could expand. I could even perhaps start manufacturing the parts (they’re plastic) myself.
The kids are doing well. I feel most my good self when with them. April will be a tough month for seeing them as I was on travel for most of last week and then I have the Ireland trip in 4ish days. I miss them already, but we did get to spend Easter together at my aunt’s house in Wisconsin.
Musically, I’ve been playing more drums than anything. Something about setting down rhythms without worrying about fretting notes/chords is nice. I’ll have to do some recording and put more up on the player here.
That’s enough rambling for now. I hope any reader who made it this far is doing well.